I’m kind of terrified to hope right now, all that leaves for me is prayer.
I’m praying that should my world expand my heart will expand with it. Wherever I am called I want humility to follow. Thoughts of self sabotage lead me to wonder if I'm fully prepared for greater responsibilities.
I feel like I’ve been waiting on this door to open for the entirety of my life. Impatiently I’ve knocked, banged, yelled, and tried to bargain my way pass it’s threshold. Each attempt more cunning than the last, but all of it was to no avail.
Perhaps I had been knocking on a door that wasn’t meant for me. I believe that may have been the problem. Coveting the lives of others had me knocking on their doors. I had wandered off course in a direction I didn’t belong. My heart was eagerly trying to betray my soul. I had been blinded, momentarily confusing this worlds values for my own.
(Epiphany) - I’d already been walking through every door I chose. It was only once I saw inside that my spirit no longer allowed me to find comfort there.
So what do I wish for next? now that I know the keys to my destination already reside within me.
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